Its a cold evening.. I am supposed to walk with my dog outside, since my place is just near on a beach, take a fresh air and play lullabies. But my boyfriend ask me to go on Skype.. So I turn on my desktop and talk to him..
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He is actually my fiance. But there is no formal proposal scene yet. We had just agreed, asked permissions from our family and made plans already.. We will be celebrating our 5th months of being together next month.
He is actually my fiance. But there is no formal proposal scene yet. We had just agreed, asked permissions from our family and made plans already.. We will be celebrating our 5th months of being together next month.
It was February 18, 2013 when I arrived here in South Korea. I am a contract singer.Together with me is a guy whom I've met on the spot of signing the contract. He said to be my partner. So we work on a big resort of SK. It was indeed a good place. A wide resort with a natural beauty of the earth of it's surround.
I loved the place,I loved the staff but unexpectedly I have a little trouble with my partner. But it's too early to give up, so what I did is I release the pain through tears and then get myself back to reality.
And then I met him, my fiance.. He is a friend of my friends- previous band of the resort. They introduced me to him and him to me.. So we became good friends and I found my comfort unto his side. Then he courted me for a short span of time. At that moment, when he hugged me, I felt the caress that I am looking for since my first day of being in this place.. March 8, 2013, our official day of being "In a Relationship" status. :)
The following days were full of romance. He sent bouquets, fetched me from my working place, took me to those places that I haven't seen yet, gave me gifts, danced me with his favorite songs and above all, he showed his love in every way he knew everyday.
He surprised me on my birthday. We did it on a week-long celebration, with our friends of course. He never failed to prove himself to me. He changed for the better. He even go with me to church. He really loved me.
We went on the lakeside which I called "My Temporary Paradise". He took my hand and gave a promise ring to me. He uttered all of the good promises that a man can give to his woman. And it really gave me a wonderful impact. I gave him a promised bond too- a bracelet with small statue on its center.
Until a saddening thing happened. I need to be situated on a different area. I am 7 hours away from him now. We have no choice but to deal with a "long-distance-relationship". He visited me once every two weeks. Truly, love is not about distance. It is about love. Our vows that we both want to fulfill
Yes, we vowed to each other... And I am hoping that it will never be a used to be promises.... broken...
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So we were chatting a while ago. I don't know why every time that we are talking on Skype,we always argue. Funny but at least we always parted the conversation with sweet words.
A week ago, I visited him on his area. At the very moment that I saw him, I can feel that their is something missing... his sweetness.. He still hold my hand, kissed me, but I really feel strange. He easily get pissed. And when Im about to leave,I said "I love you" but his reply is "Take Care"..
A while ago, on our conversation, he shared about his plans.. Saying "If I have a child, I want him to be... Or I want my child to be.. Or I want my child,.." I waited him to include me atleast on his plans, but I was disappointed.. Never I heard him saying .. "If we have a child , I want him to be..." Then he asked me if what will I do if there is no us in the future.. I didnt even know how to respond to his question,so I answer it with a question too.. I asked "Will you allow it?".. "If it will be, then let it be", I added..
I am holding back my tears.. But I just cant. So I said "I love you" and ended our conversation.. Why it is so saddening..? Why negative changes occurs? Are this signs that I must be sure first if he is for me and me is for him??
I pray for wisdom. Hope our promises will never be another used to be..
The following days were full of romance. He sent bouquets, fetched me from my working place, took me to those places that I haven't seen yet, gave me gifts, danced me with his favorite songs and above all, he showed his love in every way he knew everyday.
He surprised me on my birthday. We did it on a week-long celebration, with our friends of course. He never failed to prove himself to me. He changed for the better. He even go with me to church. He really loved me.
We went on the lakeside which I called "My Temporary Paradise". He took my hand and gave a promise ring to me. He uttered all of the good promises that a man can give to his woman. And it really gave me a wonderful impact. I gave him a promised bond too- a bracelet with small statue on its center.
Until a saddening thing happened. I need to be situated on a different area. I am 7 hours away from him now. We have no choice but to deal with a "long-distance-relationship". He visited me once every two weeks. Truly, love is not about distance. It is about love. Our vows that we both want to fulfill
Yes, we vowed to each other... And I am hoping that it will never be a used to be promises.... broken...
.....
So we were chatting a while ago. I don't know why every time that we are talking on Skype,we always argue. Funny but at least we always parted the conversation with sweet words.
A week ago, I visited him on his area. At the very moment that I saw him, I can feel that their is something missing... his sweetness.. He still hold my hand, kissed me, but I really feel strange. He easily get pissed. And when Im about to leave,I said "I love you" but his reply is "Take Care"..
A while ago, on our conversation, he shared about his plans.. Saying "If I have a child, I want him to be... Or I want my child to be.. Or I want my child,.." I waited him to include me atleast on his plans, but I was disappointed.. Never I heard him saying .. "If we have a child , I want him to be..." Then he asked me if what will I do if there is no us in the future.. I didnt even know how to respond to his question,so I answer it with a question too.. I asked "Will you allow it?".. "If it will be, then let it be", I added..
I am holding back my tears.. But I just cant. So I said "I love you" and ended our conversation.. Why it is so saddening..? Why negative changes occurs? Are this signs that I must be sure first if he is for me and me is for him??
I pray for wisdom. Hope our promises will never be another used to be..
